Limbo

Might as well blow the dust off of this thang and update you folks and let you know where I can be found on these internets if you care.

Working on four months at the new gig and while I'm still trying to adjust (possibly too slow for anyone's and my liking), it's going well. The main thing for me is to be employed and be happy doing what I like doing. Still plotting and planning with side hustles, but this job isn't bad by any stretch of the imagination.

Life back in Delaware hasn't been easy or ideal, but it's still home and now that I have a new car, I can go cruising if need be. Too bad Wilmington is crazy as hell.

Yep, the Bonneville died, so now I own a 1999 Dodge Stratus and it's not bad. A couple of early problems I've had to solve and get fixed, but nothing major as of yet. This is the first car I've had with a working CD player, so I'm excited. She's a sweet silver thing, I call her Trish after WWE diva Trish Stratus. So far, it's just been to and from work (I've only had it about a month), but it's good to have a new set of wheels.

Now...I'm not sure how long I'm going to keep using this blog, as you can see, I tend to forget about it on a regular basis, but I have a more professionally-influenced blog (http://chrisstevenssite.wordpress.com) annnnnnnnnnnnnnd I have an internet radio show/podcast that's on live Sunday and Wednesday nights at 10 p.m., so go to http://www.blogtalkradio.com/chrisstevensonair and check me out.

That said, hope everybody's well and I'll be hitting your blogs more often as I'm getting settled in.

'Justments

Well...I'm home. After losing my job in Maryland the last day of March, I sat around for a week, angry and annoyed, in limbo and in transition when I got word of another job back home in Delaware. It was almost like it was ordained. Got the job and literally had two weeks to get my stuff together and get back to the First State, which means I'm currently staying with family until I get enough time to find and secure an apartment.

Not the ideal circumstances (shelter-wise anyway), but I'm learning to adjust to life as it comes. I tend to be a black and white person - there's no middle ground or in between. Either you do or you don't, you will or you won't, it's a yes or a no. Kinda rigid, but I'm really not a fan of variables and extra stuff. Unfortunately, life doesn't care about what I want and what I like. I had to learn that when I was pushed out of my previous gig and then literally fell into another one less than two weeks later. Would I have been so fortunate had I not taken a chance? Probably not.

Either way, I feel good being back in Wilmington. Everybody I know is here, the city skyline welcomes me back from work every evening, and I just feel more at ease in the city and state I spent the first 26 years of my life in. Maybe you can go home again. Sure things'll be different, but as long as you feel comfortable, it's home. I was never comfortable in Southern Maryland. I'm comfortable here. I'm home.

Just another of life's adjustments.

No choice

It's never really good to settle into a routine, especially one that's proving to be unhealthy. But we have no choice - food must be put on tables, roofs kept over heads, clothes on bodies, bills to be paid, etc.

We put up with so much in the name of the aforementioned, but we have no choice - what are we going to do? Just leave everything the way it is?

That's usually when you go for changing the routine or the routine changes for you. The routine was changed for me recently, and now I have to adapt and adjust. Which is good because while my responsibilities are nil, I tricked myself into think this routine was okay and that it would get better...signs were showing me that it wouldn't and then a huge sign slapped me in my face. Right on time.

So as I prepare to change my routine (and location), so many questions to answer - what will I do? What can I do? Will I be able to find a routine that fits me and that I'll enjoy? Will I ever find my stride?

I'm about to find out. I have no choice.

Where have I been yet again

I'm telling y'all, Twitter is what's hot in the streets, son. Seriously, I spend all of my internet time cutting a fool with some of the craziest folks on the internet and sometimes networking with fellow professionals in my biz, not to mention the pro blog and the radio show take up a lot of my time outside of work, so I've kinda sorta forgotten about this format, so much so I left a comment on Miz's blog under the e-mail address for my radio show. Oops. Sorry, Miz!

But not much has changed, I'm 11 months or so into my gym usage and slowly but surely, my body is coming around, now if I can just kick sugar and carb snacks, I'll really be good. I've been saying this for a while, I need a yoga routine based on this, lol

The radio show is going well, only two months in and I have people listening to me talk sports and other stuff when the mood hits me and it's awesome. As much as I hate my voice, it's pretty cool to know that people really enjoy the show and want it to do well. The link is in a previous post, but if I anybody wants it, I'll be glad to share again. I usually go on Sunday nights from 11 to 11:30 p.m., but I hope to get more air time to talk about more for longer, but in the meantime, this is pretty cool. I'm having a blast.

I'm working nine straight Saturdays of work. Then when I do get a Saturday off, I probably won't know what to do with myself.

All in all, still alive, still well. Hope you guys are well also.

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A mess

That's all I can title this blog post because that's what my life is at the moment, personally anyway.

I really believe women can't stand me. Seriously. I don't believe any woman that claims to like or be intrigued by someone when you play games when it comes to sex.

Not to mention It's always funny when women say "If this were a different time, I would have, but things have changed with me." Come. The. F ck. On. I might not be the most attractive dude in the world, but dumb is one thing I am NOT. I guess my words are coming back to haunt me I suppose. I've always said women want to have sex, they just don't want to have sex with you. Turns out the you is me.

Winter Weight Blues

I stepped on the scale after my gym workout this morning and was mad as hell that the number was the same as it was the previous Sunday morning. How could this happen? I watch what I eat, I rock out at the gym four days a week, but the weight loss has just stopped DEAD in its tracks.

Now here's the tricky part - I can look in the mirror and see a change in my face and most areas of my body and my clothes are starting fall off my ass. So what's going on here? A little thing called muscle mass. Muscle is heavier than fat from what I understand and you build more of that in the winter my fitness genius acquaintance tells me. So I guess I can keep rollin considering I notice the changes, but I want that number DOWN.

I have to be realistic though because I didn't put the weight back on overnight, so I have to double the effort to lose it because it's so easy to gain it. Overall, I can't complain. I feel a lot better, move a lot faster and a lot of things I do aren't as exhausting as they once were. So I guess it's really not the blues, it's just excitement that I'm on the right path. The numbers will take care of themselves eventually.